I realized how hard self control(in this case anger)is. Going by an incident that happened today that I am not ready to share yet.. but Waaaa.. I don’t know..
I’ll just try to give you a skeleton of what happened.
Someone said something really mean to me and thought that I didn’t hear it. While they walked away.. I stared and contemplated whether I should talk back..
I responding by saying,
“Excuse me, why would you say that?” As he was defending his case, honestly… I felt my anger boiling up inside of me. Someone was going to get seriously hurt and I was going to bite his finger off. I really tried to fight the urge to talk back and cuss him out…
But I cried instead and just walked away.
At that moment I asked God… What is this self control business that you want us to have? Why couldn’t I just act on the emotion?
And then I remembered,
22 “But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,
23 gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.
24 Those who belong to Christ Jesus have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires.
25 Since we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit.”
This is my understanding,
When we accept Jesus as our Lord and saviour it means, part of him, being the holy spirit, lives and manifests in us bearing the fruits of the spirit.
We’re human so this is so hard! Because, come on…
We want to:
Lash at them
Shout at them
Spit on them
Make them trip
All these and many more.
This is why self control is one of the gifts that the holy spirit gives us.. it doesn’t come naturally.. We have not been made that way. When we accept Jesus he gifts us those gifts.
It’s a virtue and it requires total surrender to Christ for him to deal with us.
That day honestly, I was going walk away, hide myself, throw a huge stone at him and then walk past him like nothing ever happened..
Yeah so I do that… And then what?
He gets hurt… And then what?
Or will he be like,
“Ouch!!! Waaaa yes… I take it it’s a sign that I hurt her.. that girl that I dissed a few minutes ago..”
then he runs and chases me to apologize on his knees..
~End of story~
Well, that is how I’d like it to play in my head but, I’m sorry it doesn’t work like that in the real world.
For you to be angry at someone you must hate them for something that they have done.
Do you know what the bible says about that?
Matt 5:22 (NLT)
“But I say, if you are even angry with someone, you are subject to judgement. If you call someone an idiot, you are in danger of being brought before the court. And if you curse someone, you are in danger of all the fires of hell.”
You can correct them in love or just walk away.. or say that you are not ready to have that conversation now until you cool down and have it when your emotions are not way up there.
I walked away…
I hope this helps.
Have a wonderful time in the world flowers🌼